......beyond.......

Ayyuha syabab!!

Labels: Min Qalbi, SYABAB FATAYAT, Tazkirah - Monday, March 29, 2010

Wahai pemuda..

Sesuatu fikrah itu akan berjaya jika wujud keyakinan yang kuat terhadap fikrah yang didokong tersebut, wujudnya keikhlasan dalam mendokongnya, semangat yang sentiasa membara bersamanya serta sedia berkorban dan berusaha merealisasikannya. Keempat-empat asas ini, iaitu keimanan (keyakinan), keikhlasan, semangat dan amal adalah sifat-sifat istimewa para pemuda.

Sebabnya ialah, ASAS KEIMANAN IALAH HATI YANG BERSIH, ASAS KEIKHLASAN IALAH JIWA YANG SUCI, ASAS SEMANGAT IALAH KEINGINAN YANG KUAT DAN ASAS AMAL IALAH KEAZAMAN YANG MEMBARA. Setiap sifat ini tidak berada pada sesiapa kecuali pada para pemuda.

Atas dasar ini dalam mana-mana bangsa para pemuda menjadi tonggak kepada kebangkitan mereka. Setiap kebangkitan ada rahsia kekuatannya yang tersendiri. Setiap fikrah ada pendokong panjinya.

"Sesungguhnya mereka itu orang-orang muda yang beriman kepada Tuhan mereka, dan Kami menambah buat mereka huda (petunjuk)" Al Kahfi 13:18

Imam Hasan Al Banna

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Aku ingin jadi pemuda
Pemuda yg punya ciri-ciri sebenar pemuda
Namun, aku masih lagi sedang cuba bangun sendiri

Aku masih lagi belum sempurna
Untuk mempunyai ciri-ciri sebenar seorang pemuda
Namun, aku masih mencuba sedaya
Walau kadang-kadang jatuh terleka

Aku punya impian
Impian untuk menjadi seorang pemuda
Biarpun masih banyak lompong dalam diriku
Tapi itulah cita-citaku

Untuk menjadi pemuda yang benar-benar punya ciri pemuda!!!

Bantulah aku Ya Allah!!
Pimpinlah akak Ummi Abah
Tolonglah kite sahabat-sahabat

Wallahua3lam

being tested

Labels: Aktiviti, Life, Min Qalbi, Tazkirah - Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Salam 3laikum jami3an

23 March 2010
Hour 1300

"Alhamdulillah, I have found a new formula to wake up back from feeling 'down'. And I figured that when we feel that, don't let the feeling control us but say to ourselves that we will try again with iman spirit because if we let the feeling control us, we won't do the things that we are suppose to do and we will do the things that we shouldn't do. And that is why Allah send us that feeling is to teach us how to wake up if we face the state of feeling 'down'.

I will be tested on what I told to others. I wonder this matter of conversation (waking up from feeling down) will be tested right away or after this or soon"

I said to Kak Cik in the bus, going back from jami3h.
Had a nice conversation about life, individual potential, knowledge and many more with her....

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23 March 2010
Hour 1800

After going back from Madinah Hasan, Stadium of Irbid with many incidents happened there, I went to Raihana's room as someone told me that my Organic Chem was with her....
I sprinted to her room as though something good will be happening.

"Rai, dah dapat kertas ea?? Kite punya mana ye?" I said with smile carved.
"Ada kat Nabil."

I took the paper from Nabil (she's a girl) with no doubt of why mine was with her..

Well, to be honest, seeing my mark was just 0 and 8 written on that paper, it gave me no shock...
They told me that the lecturer marked my paper wrongly...
Yet, alhamdulillah, my iman preserved me from being insane
(Imagine if you got only 8 out of 30? It can be a huge rock that readily to be falling on you)
Well, 08 wasn't my mark, it was wrong....

Frankly, I was still disappointed even though it was proven wrong. I started to think that I didn't do my really best in OC exam and doubted my answers.

Getting low mark in Physiology (got the mark on the same day - I think there might be something wrong with the computer system) and don't-know-yet-the-true-mark in Organic Chemistry made me feel 'down'. I didn't confess it but also not denying.

Heading towards my friends room for consultation and told them what I felt. (Well, this is my way of how to relieve my disappointment, tell others and consult them)

I told them that I was sad for the two things happened on the same day. Yes, I knew it was test from Allah but I couldn't run away from that feeling as it came to my inside. And I was barely accepted the truth (though i managed to obtain such low marks in secondary schools.huhu.).

Well, many advices from friends I received, giving me spirit.

Izzah Saidy said,

"When those who are always on top (well, I'm not a top student, but this is a general statement) fall down once, grab the chance of feeling like those who are at the bottom"

Saiyidah Solehah said,
"Well, it was just like what you said to me that you always be tested on what you told to others. See, now you are tested. So wake up back!! You are being tested now"

My lips were sealed for a moment but not my heart. It was just like my heart being enlightened back with Allah's love. He reminded me about this through my friend. Alhamdulillah.

I said,
"Ya Allah, you're right. Even though I said to you about feeling down about 'iman' matters, but it is applicable to 'dunia' matters"

Well, I always heard about wake up from the failure from many people, but it was just a theory for me before (well, I can say that it has no means for me), thus practical is needed to implement it in practical. And that is why Allah gives us tests, to implement the theory we knew"

After all, my spirit has been restored back. I grasp my fingers into a fist, not really tight and push upwards (ot like action kamen), and yell,
"Kena bangun balik!! Allahu akbar!!" ^_^

Ya Allah, give us consistency in action
And preserve our heart from being blinded
Guide us to Your way
Amin!!

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"Banyak perkara yg perlu dipelajari di dunia ini, tapi kita tak akan mampu belajar semua dalam satu masa, jadi, terimalah kekurangan yg ada pada diri, namun berusahalah utk memperbaiki kekurangan itu walaupun no one is perfect"

Wallahua3lam

exam kaman

Labels: Aktiviti, Min Qalbi - Monday, March 22, 2010

salam....

keep shooting du'a for me
tomorrow will be first exam physiology
done with organic chemistry
yet, still another two are waiting
histology and anatomy
shoot dua so that i will always be in a state of ikhlas lillahi taala
and so that i have consistency in action
and also I don't preoccupy if succeeded

oppss..
shoot do'a for my frens too
"Ya Allah, give these mukhlisin readers success"

"yakin dgn dua dan redha dgn ketentuanNya"

wallahua3lam

mereka VS kita

Labels: Life, Min Qalbi, Tazkirah - Thursday, March 4, 2010

Salam 3laikum

"Alamak... salah buat lah tadi." rengek saya kepada kawan saya, Saiyidah Solehah selepas keluar dari Mudarraj Ulum 1 untuk peperiksaan Fizik.

"Takpelah... rezeki masing-masing. Kita bukan tak usaha, dah usaha dah. Sekarang ni tawakkal je," ujar Saiyidah a.k.a Kak Cik.

Saya terpana seketika. Menyedari kembali hakikat tawakal.

Saya masuk ke dalam koster Azam dengan jawapan-jawapan Fizik yang masih terbayang-bayang di fikiran. Namun, kata-kata Kak Cik tadi mengurangkan keresahan.

Tet..Tet.. Message dari kakak ............ masuk ke Inbox

Ayatnya lebih kurang begini...
"Salam..macam mana exam tadi? Ok ke Fizik? takpe... Allah tak pandang natijah tapi Allah pandang usaha kita.. Jom belajar tingkatkan usaha tapi redha dengan ketentuanNya"

Meresap masuk ke dalam hati teguran dari Allah yang disampaikan melalui kakak tu. Betapa Allah mendengar keresahan hati hambaNya dan betapa halusnya Allah

Mungkin selama ini kita sering berkata mengenai perkara yang sama iaitu tawakkal kepada orang yang lain. Tapi, sifat manusia yang sering lupa, menunjukkan kita perlukan keluarga dan sahabat serta sekeliling yang boleh mengingatkan kita kembali tentang apa yang diperkatakan.

Lihat sahaja kisah 'Asim bin Amru...

Apabila Squad tentera Islam yang diketuai Sa'ad bin Abi Waqas ketika dalam peperangan untuk menguasai sebuah negara (maaf saya tak ingat..nanti akan dirujuk semula secepat mungkin) tiba di seberang Sungai Dajlah (Sungai Tigris), beliau memecahkan squadnya kepada sejumlah tentera elit yang diketuai 'Asim bin Amru untuk menjadi perintis bagi menyeberangi sungai itu. 'Asim bin Amru pula memecahkan lagi pasukan elitnya kepada yang benar-benar hebat.

Kemudian, Asim berkata, "Siapa yang akan menyeberang sungai ini terlebih dahulu?"
Namun, tiada siapa yang berani kerana seberang sungai sana telah dibarisi oleh tentera lawan.

Kemudian, Asim berkata, "Saya tidak menyangka tentera Islam seperti kamu takutkan air". Dan dengan penuh tawakkal kepada Allah, beliau menyeberang sungai tersebut bersama kudanya sehinggakan musuh berkata "Ini bukan manusia malahan jin"

Lihat pula kisah Zubair Al-Awwam...

Zubair merupakan pembantu Rasulullah (hawariyy) berdasarkan hadith nabi "Setiap nabi mempunyai pembantu dan pembantuku ialah Zubair".

Tawakkal Zubair kepada Allah dapat dilihat apabila dalam peperangan melawan Rom.
Apabila mendapati bahawa kubu Rom hanya boleh dibuka dari dalam, Zubair mengambil keputusan untuk memanjat kubu tersebut dan membuka dari dalam dengan pertahanan tentera Islam yang lain dari bawah yang akan membantu Zubair menyerang tentera di atas kubu.

Ini kubu Salahudin Al-Ayyubi di Dimasyq. Tapi bayangkan bagaimana Zubair memanjat kubu..

Kalau dianalisis kembali kisah hidup kita sebagai seorang student terutamanya di Jordan.
Dalam keadaan examination yang bertubi-tubi hampir setiap minggu...
Kerja yang bertimbun-timbun...
Berseorangan di luar rumah waktu malam...
Bersedia dengan kejadian yang tak tersangka-sangka di tengah jalan atau mungkin di masjid (di mana beg saya dicuri).. Naudzubillah

Keadaan-keadaan adalah merujuk situasi yang perlu kita hadapi dan tidak boleh menuding kepada orang lain
Tapi berbalik kepada kisah sahabat tadi.. situasi mereka adalah situasi pilihan
Di mana mereka boleh memilih untuk melakukan atau tidak

Saya berfikir... Memang agak susah untuk memilih perkara yang berat untuk diri kerana mungkin kurangnya tawakkal dan kepercayaan kepada Allah..
Macam mana boleh jadi macam tu?? Sebab kurangnya tawakal dan kepercayaan kepada Allah sebelum-sebelum ini.

Apabila saya menganalisis sirah sahabat dan situasi kami, saya dapati perlunya belajar untuk bertawakkal biarpun ianya perkara kecil yang perlu kita hadapi kerana ia akan mengajar kita untuk bertawakkal dengan perkara besar yang perlu kita pilih...

"Suka bila ada orang ingatkan saya bila saya lupa.. Terima kasih sahabat-sahabat sumer tak kira tua, muda"

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Ada seorang kakak pernah memberitahu saya,
"Detik yang paling berkobar-kobar ialah detik setelah menerima hidayah. Dan cara untuk menyiraminya supaya hidup lebih lama ialah dengan berkongsi"

Wallahu a'lam

ghurabaa

Labels: Life, Min Qalbi, songs, SYABAB FATAYAT, Tazkirah - Friday, February 26, 2010

Salam 3laikum
Selawat to Rasulullah s.a.w
who sacrificed himself and taught his sahaabah to sacrifice themselves
so that Islam will be delivered to us

"To love the Prophet is to revive his Sunnah and to spread his words"

The Prophet said "The one who will conquer Constantinapole is one who is the best leader and has the best army and has the best people"

And what Rasulullah s.a.w said had happened hundreds year after that

The Prophet also said "Islam began as something strange, and it will return as something strange the way it began. So give glad tidings to the strangers."

As we all know,
Islam began among a few individuals, then it spread and prevailed, then it will reduce in numbers until there are only a few left, as it was in the beginning..
And at the time there was a few muslims, Islam was being as something strange....
And if we look around us today
Islam can be considered as something strange
Because Western is being looked as magnificent power and in other word Ustaziatul Alam or World Order

Take a notice of what Abul A'laa Al0Maudoodi said in his speech entitled "The Responsibility of Muslim Youth Today"

The thought of generation nowadays has been corrupted:

1. Adopting colonialist's lifestyle and language.
They feel like speaking in mother tongue is a shame. Well, it's not a fault talking other language such as the colonialist's but consulting mother tongue language indicate that the colonialists has succeeded in ghazwul fikr. Yet, we have to learn their language as it is needed today to ease our da'wah and to remove the obstacle...

2. Wearing colonialists' dress and addicting with their fashion

3. Adopting colonialist's eating etiquette..
From the way they eat, drink until the way they sit and stand up, the generation keep following the colonialist. It's not only that, yet they defend the colonialist's lifestyle...
The generation had been imbued with materialism, idealism...

Well... Maudoodi delivered this speech in 1962. I can say that it was a long time ago. But, what he said can be proven today. And based on the proves, we can see that Western lifestyle is dominant.

Thus, the what Rasulullah said in the hadeeth will happen. There will be ghuraba' this days. And glad tidings to the ghurabaa'...

I pray to Allah that me, myself, my family, my teachers, my friends and all of us are among the ghurabaa..InsyaAllah...

Allah will choose anyone He likes to be his jund (army)...

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Dedicated to all of you...

Ghuraba'a (Strangers) - Lyrics in English